Kate is…?
I feel like often people assume things of me, a sort of ‘Kate would do this’, or ‘that is such a Kate thing to do!’ mode of thinking, and almost just as often I think to myself, ‘that’s not a ‘Kate’ thing to do at all.’
But I was thinking lately that I do actually hide a lot of myself from people. Just, I’m very aware of perception and how this can be manipulated and I think, at some level, a lot of what people see of me is what I want them to see.
But when I think of this, I have to question what exactly this ‘myself’ is— and it becomes clear to me how changeable that is. The interesting thing about having dyed your hair 15 times in half a year or so is that it becomes very easy to map out when certain changes occur. From the first time I dyed my hair blue to my hair as it is now is such a difference in maturity… the difference in my mindset then and now is so dramatic, it makes me wonder what this solid ‘self’ I seem to be referring to actually is; whether that exists at all.
